Remember the my Deviant art story I wanted to write a more indepth story of my life aswell (not very indepth, if you really want to know ask me and you'll hear my whole life from top to bottom XD)
So here is my story:
(let's start at the beginning I began on DA further back is no use in this journal anyway)
My journey on DA began very simple. 4 years ago I was simply strolling through google images for some awesome Pokémon/Anime ect. pictures, I saw a few and saved those to my pc, I didn't know about artist copywright or whatever it was, I thought those images were on the internet so it was free to save them on my pc and redraw them. A few of my arts here are still redraws of actual drawings made by others on DA from only 1 piece I knew from who I redrew it which is this drawing >
<, the others I have no idea and also couldn't find the actual picture anymore (as much as I want to give credit to the original drawer).
After a while strolling through pictures on google I saw that allot of pictures came from a site called DeviantArt, some of the pictures there I couldn't see (I dunno why) whatever I tried to do, I strolled through pictures for I think a year? not sure anymore.
I saw the little thumbnail but when I clicked on the picture to go to the actual site I couldn't see it. So after pondering for a few weeks, and also having the problem of not being able to see some awesome pictures, I decided to create a free account on DeviantArt on the 19th of October 2009. I could watch and save many awesome pictures, and at some point I decided to give it a shot in drawing aswell, I hadn't touched a pencil in years (around 8 years) and I felt the urge to why not give it a shot again.
So I started to doodle some things in my workbooks of school, and I thought that I was pretty good in it (I know I know >_< I was horrible.) then I decided to redraw some pictures and I also thought they looked pretty real (I know >_< it was nothing like I do now) then I thought, where can I submit my drawings too, and I remembered the site where I made a free account to watch drawings from others and that I created an account a month earlier. So I submited my first submission which was also a drawing which I was pretty proud at and I knew that Pokémon was acceptable to like on DA >-
Back then my life was dark and I didn't think I did anything ok, but when I started to draw again a piece of light emerged to me.
At first nobody knew me, and basically nobody was there to actually see my drawings or they may even not liked it, it was one of the things that I already knew that would happen because I wasn't good in anything (In my state of mind then). I was in my 4th (which is also the last) year of middle school and there it was a horrible time for me. I was sad I didn't want to go to school in the school building my feet dragged me to my classes while my mind screamed for freedom.
Then because I submitted that piece, I drew redrew more and more Pokémon (like these -
and also that picture above) but also other things like these
after I drew those, I discovered Anime
I talked with a few people at school (the only people that accepted me like me) and one of them also drew anime like pictures, I doodled a piece in my workbook and submitted my first anime like picture -
I drew more and more pictures and then I got new pencils and drew these pieces (redrew) -
After a while I decided to share my stories with the people here because I figured out you could also submit literature >_<
the story which I had in my head for years then didn't had a name >_<, it stared as -The story of secret-, then it became - Secret's Life - .... and as last the name became - Mischén of Crocanië -, who's name I decided to have and keep.
I also started a PMD like story (but then not PMD style not in a PMD world XD) - Changed -
Those 2 stories overcame many changes in plot and story line, esspecially Mischén of Crocanië did.- Skip if you want -
The story started as a Pokémon like story (you don't know that story line >_<), later on it started as a Pokémon like story with special powers and such (that story line you also don't know), after that it became a story with human like Pokémon which could use poweres and came from a different plannet (you do might know that story plot XD) then it became a story about human like creatures who could use powers (elemental powers) who lived like humans among humans but still had their characteristics different then the human itself, and that was my last evolution in the story.- You can read from here again XD -
And made a oneshot called - The Beast Of The Sea -
I also drew in the meantime a few pieces (I thought that looked like anime >_<) like -
(<- this one I drew with a how to draw book (with a few more pieces)XD) and
(which were soo out of proportion XD)
And then I got colour pencils, which I used for a contest (this one -
- ), and later for a piece at which I am to date still extremely proud at -
I tried to tune up my proportions so I bought a few how to draw Manga books XD and learned more about proportions, YET I was horrible at it and wasn't able to do anything at all in proportion XD so I ditched to proportion thing XD
So I drew more with coloured pencils and things out of the head (without reference), then made my second OC (my first one is Mischén) Skyler Draco a half dragon and Mayra Pealten who's a human (later I made a story with them XD) -
Also I've drew a couple of random drawings like -
- and ect.
and I tried for the first time Pixel art -
- and then didn't do much with that.
Let's just say in 2010, 2011 and 2012 (In 2012 I started to do more regularly Pixel art XD) I was really active on DA and I have allooooot of things in those times XD
I don't remember when anymore but during the years I got to know more and more people which I adored and saw as an example like MiyaToriaka
, I also got friends which I never thought I would ever get like RayquazaGaby
, Whispering-Starz and ExSuicune
In 2010 (november 29th 2010) something amazing happened to me, I met my fiance, (which is nening btw he joined after he met me to share some of his idea's and works) my life got a complete twirl around and I began to see the world in a positive perspective, before that the only place which was nice and felt like people accepted me was DA and my own home.
also my drawings started to get better and better and better.
I even did a draw this again meme on my first piece I drew out of my head - - which I could see I got better in proportions (I made up my own proportion manner XD) and I got allot better then in 1 year...
Everything till today has been a heck of a ride, I started a new school which was a school where people accepted me like me, but the problem was I had trouble finding a internship, people at buisnisses didn't want me so I failled my first year because of that (well fail I was send to the second year but I had trouble) I started to feel insecure of myself while my fiance tried to cheer me up, I fell in a dark hole again when 2 of my cats died... I fought on with the little hope I had, and I could find a place that wanted me for half a year (I was allowed to do one more year to try to get my diploma), it broke me completely, my days were completely full and my weekends was sleeping, while I was strugglign so much my most dearest cat passed away aswell, that only made my situation worse I couldn't sleep I was crying, my internship was nice to give me some space, they understood my pain and were ashocked that I still came.
I drew then the days how I felt (here - tintjemadelintje101.deviantart… -) it made me bring the pain a place and feel at peace again, knowing that I did everythign for her and that she was now resting peacefully.
after that I managed to finish my internship and go back to school to do my exams again, I passed and recieved my diploma.
I was broken and felt horrible. on DA I tried to be as nice as I could, I did snap at some people and was sometimes angry for nothing.
I changed my perspective on the world again, my fiance was there for me all the time, he tried to cheer me up, comforted me when needed, and listened to the pain in my heart at the moment I needed the most.
I learned what is important to me and what not, I now might sound heartless to some people or even emotionless in some cases. But I made my decisions those are:
- Not watching the news anymore
- Listen to what someone has to say, think about it and decide if you care or not.
- If something happens far from home, it has nothing to do with me, it won't help anyway if I do care.
- Some people are who they are, they express how they want, that doesn't mean I agree.
and as last
- I am myself, I like what I like, I decide what important or not to me, and nobody can tell me otherwise.
I grew allot in the years.
DA changed my life for the better, but also for the worse, some people became mad because I said something they disagree with, some people don't like what I do, but that's ok, we are all human and we have our own opinions in every matter.
As last I'm gonna say one thing which many people have struggle to believe, so if you don't it's fine by me
I'm an atheist, I don't believe in a god or more gods. (that is what atheist means literaly - here is the definition www.thefreedictionary.com/athe… - )
but that doesn't say I don't believe in life after death.
Like I said in the beginning, if you wish to have a more indepth story about my life until this day, then feel free to ask, if you are willing to read allot and willing to listen >_< I'll tell you.
Well that was is for this journal.
This is TintjeMadelintje101 signing out : salute: